Easter Sunday is but a few short hours away and I've nothing planned. Didn't colour any hardboiled eggs a wondrous array of blooming pastel shades. I didn't buy several bags of tinted plastic grass to line various baskets with goodies and toys for anyone in particular. I haven't even planned a veritable feast for family, friends, or the townsfolk. Sounds a pretty laid back holiday this year. Perhaps even bordering on the dull. Which is fine by me.
Holidays in general don't really hold the import as they did when my father was alive. I think I literally 'felt' more with him in the world. These days I focus on such trivial things and worry endlessly over the smallest problems. He kept me grounded, but also gave me inspiration. Particularly where my art is concerned.
Tomorrow probably won't be any kind of huge celebration, but it will be filled with memories. Good ones along with the sad, as Ifind myself missing someone so dear to me and my mother. Holidays are always tough to get through. It is a good day to be thinking about him though. Easter is all about rebirth, the resurrection of Christ to be reunited with his family and disciples. I do believe in that with my whole heart. And I also believe someday I will see my dad again. That wonderful day on Resurrection morning when I see him hold open his arms once again for that hug I've been missing for so long. That is what gets me through the really dark days. Well, most of them, anyway. It sure would be nice to see him again. We sure have a lot of catching up to do.
Happy Easter <3
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